I find that I am more prone lately to be on my knees than anywhere else.

 

It is a time of complete unrest as the time of Christ return draws very near. Unlike most I do not fear dying as I know I have a home where Eternal God dwells.

 

What I do fear is time.

 

I fear that I do not have enough time and that I have not prayed enough for those I love who still have not come to Christ.

 

What I fear is that the bridegroom is at the door and some of my very dearest friends have let their lamps run out of oil and I don’t have time to help them.

 

What I fear is that my own flesh and blood have not really fully committed their hearts to Christ because they think they do have enough time.

 

Matthew 24:44 Therefore be ye also ready: for in such an hour as ye think not the Son of man cometh…

 

God has not given me the spirit of fear, so don’t misunderstand me when I say I am afraid. This is not a fear born of terror, but of sorrow.

 

In my desire to live for God and do His work have I missed the mark that He clearly set before me to reach?

 

Have I shared enough of the Love of God that I can stand before Him someday with a clean conscience knowing I did all I could do to bring them in to the kingdom?

 

As ISIS marches closer, Russia invades and conquers, China and Japan spark conflict and Earthquakes shake divers places. Rampant fear and violence rampage across the Middle East my heart longs for Christ to come but…

 

My brothers, my sisters, my nephews, nieces, my friends, my co-workers, my neighbors all without Christ~

 

Oh God my heart is torn in so many fractured and shattered pieces.

 

I want to pray for your return.

 

I long for your return with every ounce of my being, but I can’t Lord not yet Abba Father there are still more to come.

 

More that need to see Your Love and experience Your Grace~

 

On my knees I Cry Abba Father~

 

Abba Father please not yet ~

 

I need and we need more Time~

 

Your Daughter,

Shawn